youth for christ!

i get help here alot! matt is amazing!!
umm lets see they have computers air hocky WII games pool and amazing people!! its awesome here!! and im sitting on the computer randomly IM'ing the person RIGHT NEXT to me.

homework later..and well this is a good up date im doing great! although the arm does still a little hurt. and my dad made me mad..i dont mind! I LOVE GOD!

its anything but::

Lately you have heard all the good i have done. what you havent heard is how poorly i have gotten, although i know everything has a purpose and i dont regret nothing i have done. its still not okay!

in the past week it hasnt been to well. i have done some pretty stupid things. to start off, i care. By that i mean my looks and what other people see me to be, and what i let them see me as. (like a mask if you will.) that isn't good! Christians shouldn't care, we should care about how to live our life out loud for god. So that we may take a stand for him one day.
-let me tell you a little bit more about me. I suffer of depression, anorexia, OCD, ADD, dyslexia, and i know more than i should (i added the last part :P) there is so much thats happened in my life a little girl should not have to go through! EVER!! but i did, and i did it alone..with God!

anyhow! i started to eat only 753 calories a day, now if you know anything about health you know your not to have anyless than 1200 calories PER DAY! well just to make some people happy i went to 1000 calories. i constantly look in the mirror and dont like what i see. i wish that plastic surgery was an option, and i know that its not possible! today caleb Torrez packed me a lunch and sits by me, so i have to eat it. ugh, it was more than i eat in a day! LITERALY, that sucked! i felt like i wanted to braf it all up. But i did not, because he took food from his house to feed me and i care about the kid! so i did as he asked me to.

I will admit god has spoken through some people to talk to me, and i have heard...i just havent applied anything yet! -im one lazy christian i can say!! :P sometimes i hate it, other times im like ehh oh well i'll have time. But truth is, i dont..im living on the edge of the new begining. IT WILL COME! just not when people say so..

"time is only real because humans made time, no where in the bible does it say god made monday tuesday wednesday thursday friday saturday or sunday! NOT EVEN the months..or the 24 hours in a day! We, the humans did!"

on top of this...im a suverly broken person helping EVERYONE around me, its the hardest thing god has ever asked me to do! but in his name, and his will i will do it! :) for him.

im learning to take it to the cross..and i know im not alone..

i think ima write a sermion..it sounds good!

Faithfulness

Today I would like to ask you, how faithful are you? And no I’m not talking about in your relationship with your partner, I’m talking about God. For some people it is so easy to be faithful to a partner and you will never thing of betraying or cheat that person because you love them so much. Now my dear friend why can’t we tread God with that love? He deserves it more then anybody here on earth.

In our walk with God it’s not always easy to be faithful, but we give up so easily. When things are going good we thank God and knows He remembers us…( I must say not everybody, some forget to thank God when all Goes well….) but tonight I’m talking about the believers that thank God for what He does and when everything goes wrong we are so easy and quick to say that God has forgotten about us and that He does not love us. I’m asking you tonight, is that fair of us?

We are faithful only when it suits us and then we ask why God does not answer our prayers. We need to be faithful in good and in bad times and I want to encourage you to be even more in bad times.

We can see from Ps 37:3 God wants us to be faithful; we need to trust in God

Psa 37:3 Trust in the LORD, and do good; dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.

My dear friends, let me tell you something today….you where not made for everything to go well, you will always have difficult times and no matter how hard you pray and how much you believe…Jesus Himself said in John 3 that trouble is coming…but how awesome to know that God will always be faithful

Deu 32:4 "The Rock, his work is perfect, for all his ways are justice. A God of faithfulness and without iniquity, just and upright is he.

We have the greatest example of all time of faithfulness, love, grace, patients….and that is Jesus, I’m asking you today, why don’t we follow His footsteps? Why don’t we be faithful to Him like He has been to us?

We need to give God something in return for all He has done for us and we can start by faithfulness….

Have a great weekend my friends and my God bless you always

frankness

Good day everyone,

How are all of you doing? I trust in our amazing Father that you are all good and growing in your walk with Him everyday.

So many of us think its not right to talk to God all the time, we grow up with the believe that you are not allowed to bother God. We are not allowed to talk to Him whenever we feel like it. Well today I want to share very good news with you!

God wants you to talk to Him, every day whenever you want to. Just like you can go to your mom and dad, so can you go to God. There is no specific time or day that you have to go into conversation with our Father, He is there for us all the time day and night.

So today I would like to talk a bit about frankness…..
But lets first se what the word means:
Expressing true opinion: open, honest, and sometimes forceful in expressing true feelings and opinions
Let me be frank with you. Showing openness and bluntness: allowing people's true feelings and opinions to be openly and often bluntly stated a frank discussion of our differences.
Pleasingly honest: having or showing an appealingly open and honest nature has a frank manner that won her many friends.
Undisguised: openly expressed, without concealment or disguise regarded him with frank loathing

We need to build a relationship with God and we need to be frank about it. As a Christian it is very important to understand frankness because if we don’t understand it how can we express our true feelings when we stand before God everyday. God knows everything but how many of us try to hide away what we really think and feel? We need to open up to God so that He can start working in us. I know its difficult out there but God has send us awesome help…the Holy Spirit, we must just let Him into our lives.

To be frank is not to be rude and hateful, its to expressing true feelings in a godly manner. We still need to stay humble and walk in the footsteps of Jesus.

Please go each day in with the knowledge that God wants to have a relationship with you and that He cant wait for the day when you decide to let Him in completely. Don’t wait to long to make that decision .

I really hope you have a awesome week and that Gods purpose for your life will unfold before your eyes.

Klemen Von Meternich

thats about all i know!! :P
havent started...and carrie is done and staring at this screen lol
shes sharing science!! wooot GO MR ANDERSON!

carrie: im not sharing
ME: liar!

anyways...yeahh super club yesterday was amazing..

go on youtube, and search lifehouse - everything
one heck of a skit let me tell you, i almost cried but bryce was there so im like ummm no! tuh..i watched the video online and i balled like a baby...god, im a chiken :P

[i just got told a secret! shh. its mine!]


....well im outs...[in english lab, for history! woot! ha yeahhhh not really.]

biology:]

well, right now im in biology.
we were going to do things online for like study island or something but i guess Mr Kurt got to all the laptops..i dont know [taylor cooper said HI!!] umm? yeahh lunch was boring..i got my picture taken for the website fer school. BOO!! tuh IT WAS FUNNY kind of. umm? lets see how was my day so far. well we gt a two hour delay. that was awesome! i like two hour delays they make my day go by so much better. i wrote an essay about "computer in school" like laptops for each student.. about letting the in schools to advance school learning.. i think is amazing idea, i mean like it makes more sence kids or teens could soo learn better by it!!!!

taylor is a good boy?? HMMM..NO! he seems like he would be, really hes not. just because hes good in school doesnt mean he is a good boy, HES AN ASS! hah kidding.

taylor to tarra- Oh THANKS!!!
tarra: you'll live!!

ANYWAYS!!!!!!!! what would you do or say if me and victoria aderson started to fight and she ripped my clothes off and rolled around in mud? ~i really hope, the church doesnt see this hahah that would be bad!

Save, Secured and Loved

What is the one thing that everybody needs, seeks and long for? Is it not to feel save, secure and loved? You were made with the driving passion to love and to be loved, but it does not stop there!! You are made with a longing for something or someone, even when you meet that special person you are still unsatisfied with what you have. There is a inner search to please someone, and let me tell you that person is God….Yes I tell you the truth today and its so sad that so many people never get the chance to experience that total feeling of being loved. People walk around with the idea in there heads that they are made to eat, sleep, have jobs and house and make friends, is that what you think? Is that what you think your purpose on this earth is? If your answer is yes then I think you need to learn the truth today….

There is such great love and sense of security if you come to understand and know God. No I’m not just another person trying to convince you that God is the way the truth and the light, I’m telling you. Without God we are nothing, just some specks walking around on this planet. People so often turn to people for happiness and rely on a person to heal them or take the hurt away from childhood or a previous broken relationship, an abusive father or mother or it can be that you were teased at school. What ever the reason, why do we turn to people for comfort and security? God is the only One that will never hurt you or abandon you, He will never shout at you or say hurtful things to you, He will never send you away if you need love and comfort, so why not turn to Him? Is He not the Giver of life? Is He not the One that loves you more than anyone? Is He not the One that puts you first and have your name writhen in the palm of His hand?
Isa 49:16 Behold, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are continually before me.
God loves and understands you, He knows everything about you. Your weaknesses and your strengths, what you like and dislike. Nothing about you is new to Him, but yet He still loves you. He does not ask or expect of you to be perfect, He wants you to be loved.

If you don’t have God in your life, I want to tell you that to make that decision will be the best one you will ever make. God has an appointment with you and is waiting for you to let Him in. Look around you, do you see all the splendour, His creation and love. All the wonderful things that He has made? God cares much more for you than things on this earth, you are His child. I ask that you look past the things of the world and all that is going on, I’m asking you to look at God and His beauty. All you need to do is trust in Him and turn to Him.

I truly hope that you make God apart of your life and see how satisfying it is to walk with Him, no matter what happens in your life. God is truly the only One that can give you 100% security, love and the feeling of being save.
Our God is a awesome God and I love him

My prayer for you:
My wonderful Father and Friend, I thank You for the opportunity to tell this people about Your greatness and love. God You are truly the Way and the Light. I ask that You will please reveal Yourself to these people and let them experience Your love. God thank You that we can know for certain that You love us and will always be there for us. Father God You are awesome and there will never be anyone like You. I ask this in the Name of Jesus Christ and I thank You.
Amen

history class.

so like we have to do this project or whatever and i have Klemen Von Metternich or something..Carrie is on my case cuz i have a computer and hers dont work..and Lacy is being like.. who are you messaging? are they going to message back, she doesnt get the concept of a blog or something..wow lacy!! shes still lost.!!! and im okay because i love her!

so if you know who my guy is..please tell me because i HAVE NO IDEA! all i know is he is a prince!:]

[splurg on your face? -lacy]

random?? much. so like me and bryce are still amazing! rachel, thought i was going to his house one night..at like 12am lol...umm no! i was over there earlier! so i didnt go after. that was at taco bell..wednesday!!! so um yeahh if you didnt arlready guess, im in history class tuh, and its boring.

yesterday! i bowled a 168, and that was not listening to the coach, the times i do listen i bowl like 80, because im better than his daughter! well that sucks!!

im signing off!!:]

COLLIDE Youth

http://www.youtube.com/collideyouthfcc#p/u/0/aaK2Fci2NRk

So this is Nick Gill's testimony..very strange to like put it this way. But it was amazing!! He hasnt been a Youth Leader very long, maybe a couple months. He's been with christ his whole life..But one day, he actually COLLIDED! with him, and it became his testimony. This song was writen along time ago. And im sure it still has an impact still today.

I sat front row, and well that was crazy!! This is my new favorite song! lol last comment to this...

OHHHHHHHHHH YEEAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
OHHHHHHHHHH YEEAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
OHHHHHHHHHH YEEAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
OHHHHHHHHHH YEEAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
OHHHHHHHHHH YEEAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE-EEEEEE-EEEEEE YOUR SELF!
BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE-EEEEEE-EEEEEE YOUR SELF!


--enjoy guys:)

Are you slipping away from God?

I have so many people telling me that they are slipping away from God and no matter what they do or how hard they try they can’t get back. One of the many reasons why people get lost along the way is because they believe the lies of the devil. People all over are turning away from God because things keep going wrong and they just don’t have the energy to go on fighting and they lose faith and the another thing is simply because things from the world are just too nice to give up. When friends ask us to party or to do something, we just can say no.
We as children of God must come to the point where we decide what is more important God or the world. Do we say no to our friends or do we say no to God?

That is why I want to talk today about discipline….

To be a child of God is a chose and to stay a child of God is very hard work. By that I mean, you have to fight for God. It is amazing that you become a follower of Christ but my dear friend it does not stop there. You have to discipline yourself to read your bible and to pray. You have to make that decision not to fall back.
Let see what the bible says about that….

Pro 12:1 Whoever loves discipline loves knowledge, but he who hates reproof is stupid.
Pro 5:23 He dies for lack of discipline, and because of his great folly he is led astray.

Temptation will always knock on your door and difficult times will always be there, things will never be just ok. We go trough seasons in our lives with everything. Now you feel strong in your faith and in a weeks time you feel so depressed you just want to give up. My friends God wants to see if you stay faithful to Him in Good and bad times. Some bad times go on for months but your reward at the end will be so much bigger. Once you are a child of God you are His forever, but its your duty to seek Him…to want Him…to go after Him.

Discipline yourself in your faith….God is worth you time and effort…His deserves it that you give up all the things of the world…

We as Christine’s will always have taught times…but heaven is worth it. Please hang in there, you are not alone!

Trust only in God, He will never let you down
Psa 118:8 It is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in man.

Are you Ashamed?..

What better thought ,but to know that God is everywhere and that He knows all about us. He is everywhere and we can never hide from Him. Even in the darkest of days or in the happiest of times God is there, if we are weak or strong, poor or rich, He is always there.

How many times do we do things in secret that we don’t want our family or friends or even partners to find out? We drink or smoke and do everything so that our love ones don’t find out or we have a love affair and think no one knows. Let me let you in on a truth….God knows. Everything you do , if its good or bad….He knows. Out of respect for other people we don’t want them to see our weakness and faults or we hide things away because we are scared of what they will say, but why is it nothing to us that God sees all this things?

We need to stop worrying what makes people happy and start making God happy…..

Psa 139:7 Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence?
Psa 139:8 If I ascend to heaven, you are there! If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!

We all make mistakes and God does not expect of us to be perfect, but He wants us to give our best to serve Him and make Him happy. We need to understand that life is not about us, but about God and what He wants for us.

Question for today:
Did you make God smile or sad today?
With anything you did or say, what will god say or think about it?

Lets make it our mission to make God smile….

Bryce's Final Words.

this is what bryce.. my ex-boyfriend said on facebook. He calls it "Final Thoughts"

lets take this back a little while. some of you may know that i am very care free and emotionless. well lately. before me and tarra. probably through out the last year this has been a concern of mine. why do i have no/minimal feelings? I had nothing to care about until tarra. of course i cared about God and a couple other things. but there was something missing. let me tell you a story...

one day I was sitting in a restaurant and i don't know how it happened but i was thinking about why i didn't have feelings. I thought to myself if someone came in here and held the place up. my emotions would probably not do much i would probably just go up to the guy and attempt to stop him and if i got shot oh well i get to leave earth early. at least i tried to do what was right.

now think about that. do any of you guys know what its like to feel nothing all the time. its not sad because sad is a feeling. its definitely not happy. its indescribable. but when me and tarra started dating that all changed almost instantly. i had some thing to care about. i started caring about everything that i needed too. before this the things i seemed to care about i only cared about because i was supposed to. not because I wanted to. the only thing i did truly care about was God. I cared about the rest because i was supposed to.

so i am disappointed in my friends that tore this to pieces . i still love you guys your still my friends but i think you lost my trust in this area of life. friends are supposed to be supportive not destructive... i know you say you care but if you cared you would have stayed out of it or helped us to make it better. and to make it work. instead of trying to tear it apart. i hope in the future you will stay out of it or try to help make it work. i know you guys apologized but the damage is already done and i don't think you guys are going to fix it. so i forgive you as much as i can. luckily me and tarra are still able to be friends.

thanks to those who did help or stayed out of it.

you can put your comments but i might not reply ill read them though. i'm done with this and i forgive you all. sorry if this is too direct i hope theres no hard feelings and i,m sure every thing will be fine eventually. if any one else needs to be tagged let me know.

What happened

There is such a law called "age of consent" hello i am. Well my pastor got in the middle of a good thing, now me and bryce are no longer together. We cannot continue to date because, My Pastor, will surly tell my father.

Right now, i am in Biology 1, and i'm doing study island..yesterday i lost my voice! whelp thats it for now:) bye!

That Guy:)

Mine:
There are times where i cant sleep, i toss and turn all night. When i do fall asleep there are times i dream of you. The days i feel my worst i know you can always get a smile out of me. Your the star in my sky, the sparkle in my eye, the beat to the drum. Your just what all I've thought. I get on facebook, hoping your on, i waste my day away sitting here waiting for you. The days at taco♥bell.. i go because your there. I risk getting in trouble, because i don't want there to be a night where I'm not happy.. with you there will never be a day. I'm glad your my best friend because i would go madly insane if you were not! You are my hero! The nights i see the moon, and i hope your looking at it too.. saying that.. i know you feel the same. One day we will reach the moon and when that day comes, don't expect me to forget you:) i love you and i care about you! your amazing..and i wouldn't want a life with out you! I cant wait till the day you take me there, you said it yourself, "pack your bags were going to the moon!" I'm excited! you make me so happy!

"I never want you to leave me. I would be devastated..I think my world would crash down until God picks me up! But again, my night sky would be dark as day is light. Making my moon meaningless."

-Natarra R. Grimes-

Yours:
girl: look at all the stars in the sky!
boy: why do i have to look up there...when i have a star right in front of me..

whats funny was..when i got out of my car i looked at the moon and thought, i wonder if shes looking at it too:)

"I get to see the stars flash before my eyes..I get the trip of a life time..secretly watching the moon..one day i'll travel there with you!"

-Natarra R. Grimes-

first one.

checking to see how this thing works, MM?! what to say..I'm in biology class...supposed to be doing homework, how does homework? i will check this later! :P