Bryce's Final Words.

this is what bryce.. my ex-boyfriend said on facebook. He calls it "Final Thoughts"

lets take this back a little while. some of you may know that i am very care free and emotionless. well lately. before me and tarra. probably through out the last year this has been a concern of mine. why do i have no/minimal feelings? I had nothing to care about until tarra. of course i cared about God and a couple other things. but there was something missing. let me tell you a story...

one day I was sitting in a restaurant and i don't know how it happened but i was thinking about why i didn't have feelings. I thought to myself if someone came in here and held the place up. my emotions would probably not do much i would probably just go up to the guy and attempt to stop him and if i got shot oh well i get to leave earth early. at least i tried to do what was right.

now think about that. do any of you guys know what its like to feel nothing all the time. its not sad because sad is a feeling. its definitely not happy. its indescribable. but when me and tarra started dating that all changed almost instantly. i had some thing to care about. i started caring about everything that i needed too. before this the things i seemed to care about i only cared about because i was supposed to. not because I wanted to. the only thing i did truly care about was God. I cared about the rest because i was supposed to.

so i am disappointed in my friends that tore this to pieces . i still love you guys your still my friends but i think you lost my trust in this area of life. friends are supposed to be supportive not destructive... i know you say you care but if you cared you would have stayed out of it or helped us to make it better. and to make it work. instead of trying to tear it apart. i hope in the future you will stay out of it or try to help make it work. i know you guys apologized but the damage is already done and i don't think you guys are going to fix it. so i forgive you as much as i can. luckily me and tarra are still able to be friends.

thanks to those who did help or stayed out of it.

you can put your comments but i might not reply ill read them though. i'm done with this and i forgive you all. sorry if this is too direct i hope theres no hard feelings and i,m sure every thing will be fine eventually. if any one else needs to be tagged let me know.